The Wait

I would just like to say that this is total and complete agony. Waiting. Waiting.

It’s not like I don’t have things to do. I have things to DO. LOTS of things. But I cannot get my mind off of NaNo, no matter how hard I try…and it’s torturing my brain. My plot, or at least my first few pages, are in my head and ready to get out of my head. My MC is scratching at the back of eyeballs trying to get out. Maybe this is good. I’m building up momentum, building up steam. This is good.

Yesterday, I got a little too excited and carried away and almost made a huge mistake: I created a character sheet and started making an outline. This, for me, is horrible. It’s taboo. It makes me lose my enthusiasm for the story, my inspiration, my ideas…my muse, essentially, packs his bags and goes on vacation (is it normal for a chick to have a male muse? I hope so…) to some sort of warm island where he can get banana smoothies and toe massages. And I’m left with over-caffeinated blood, bald patches where I’ve torn out my hair, and shriveled up eyes.

I know this is not the “right” way to do it, but when I write, I just jump in with a vague idea of what the plot is, one or two characters, and see where it goes. If it goes nowhere, then that’s fine; I save it and file it on Charlie (my trusty MacBook) in case I get sudden inspiration for it later, or can recycle it into a new story. But it usually goes somewhere. I like to let the characters have a little bit of rein…and I know this will make authors scream…but not too much. Just a pinky, you know? Not the whole hand. I like to see where the characters go with it.

If I make an outline beforehand, it’s like killing their freedom totally. As long as they stick to the general plot and stay true to themselves, whatever they do works for me. So I scrapped the outline, filed away the character sheet, and spent all of last night trying to erase what I’d done so far from my brain. The momentum and excitement slowly returned, and now I’m excited again.

Four more days…

2 thoughts on “The Wait”

  1. I can’t wait to start writing either! I normally never outline my stories but I made one for my NaNo novel this year. I’m not sure if it was a good idea or not, but I wanted to give it a try. I think everyone has their own way of writing their novel. Some people outline their novel and plan ahead, others simply start writing. I usually start writing when I have a vague idea of what my story is about, but I wanted to see what happened if I outlined my story. And I like it so far.

    I love it that you named your Macbook Charlie. I personally name every silly looking animal I see Charlie. I don’t know why. There’s this goose that has lived in my neighbourhood for a few years now, and his (or her?) name is Charlie and my catfish is named Charlie as well. Okay, this was a bit random…

    Good luck with NaNo!


    1. Hey, it’s always good to try new things…you never know, it might end up making you into a super-novel-writing-machine who cranks out 50k per hour. Or something.

      Hey thanks! I’ll pass that on to my keyboard friend. I actually named him after my old, dead laptop, who I named after Charlie the Unicorn. Say hello to the goose for me, and good luck to you! ๐Ÿ™‚


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