Wonderfully Made

Psalm-139

This morning I woke up and realized that now, this morning, for the first time in a long time, maybe for the first time since I was very small, I love myself. I’m flawed and imperfect, but I love myself. I love who I am. I love what is inside me. I respect myself, my thoughts, my feelings. I am allowed to take up space. I am allowed to feel. I am allowed to think, to be, to create, to speak, to breathe. I am excited about my future. And I now realize the importance of loving yourself, because how can you begin to love others if you don’t love yourself? It is then constantly a game of earning, earning, taking, inhaling, because in that state, the only love you can give is a needy love, a wanting love – at best, a self-conscious love. When you love yourself, you can love others. And all I can say is, praise God for bringing me to this place. It has been a hard road and a hard road still lies in front of me, but I have found my voice and allowed myself to speak, and I will speak and make and breathe until the hard road leads into another springtime and I can rest again.

5 thoughts on “Wonderfully Made”

  1. I have struggled with the “second commandment” for a long time because of this very thing. It is good to hear about someone else getting to that “place.” Look around and let me know if there is any extra space for me. I’m still trying to get there.

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  2. I am happy to hear that you woke up feeling happier today. There are so many doom and gloom blog I have been reading lately – it was nice to read yours!

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