The transition from “I write for fun when I have time, and I do NaNoWriMo” to “I’m going to dedicate at least half of my time to writing and see if I can make this indie author thing work” is exciting, terrifying, exhilarating, and oh yeah, terrifying. It’s having to trust myself and my writing ability in a way that I’ve never had to before. There’s something wonderfully simple about writing for fun and managing to convince yourself that you’re the best thing since sliced bread, but let’s be honest, you can afford to do that if your food pantry doesn’t depend on your books.
And it’s not the romantic ideal you think it’s going to be, either. It’s a lot of stressing in the middle of the night, waking up at 3 am to get a head start on that day’s writing, forgetting that you need to cook in order to have food, occasionally wondering how on earth you’re even going to buy said food, and getting frustrated when your creativity isn’t flowing the way it did the day before. I spend half my “writing” time on social media, networking and setting up cute Instagram shots and doing research on hashtags.
But you know, I wouldn’t change it for the world. I may sound like I’m complaining, but the truth about writing, the actual truth, is that I love it. I love it. And I get to do the thing that I love most every single day of my life. Things might be financially tight at the moment (my husband and I even have a kickstarter thing going just to help us over the bridge a little), but I’m happier than I’ve ever been.
So what’s the truth about writing? It’s hard and it’s intense, but if it’s what you love, you can’t go wrong. I’m an indie author and a possibly-soon-to-be-starving artist, but I’m happy and I wouldn’t change it for anything. So if you’re on the fence, do it. Take the leap. Be brave.